Which way to go....

At the criss cross,
I have stopped thinking,
I am almost lost,
In a sudden thought.

A thought that engages me,
For a talk with myself,
A feeling that pushes me,
To feel thy self.

I have no answer,
No hints seem coming my way,
I am discovering today,
Myself in my inner sense.

The answer to the question
Is seemingly a yes or no,
Yet the difficulty lies,
In choosing which way to go.

Its not that its something new,
I have been through this,
Done all that it takes to do,
Yet I feel so lonely today,
In this expanding world,
The networks seem to be failing,
At the criss cross,
I stand alone waging,
A war within myself.